Tis Feeling of Boredom

Ok. It's a weekend once again, and once again I am inside my room for a whole day, facing my laptop. My room mate, Lich, is now currently in a family reunion in Pampanga. She goes home every Friday, leaving me all alone in our room. It's not that I don't know anybody inside the dorm. In fact, there's Nins from Sci-high, Pakson, Chai, Maico?, Naomi, and Corazon from Pisay Visayas, I kind of like know them. There's also Choli and Gella, whom I always hang out and eat with. I could always hang out with this people but I don't like them to think of me as clingy. We all live separate lives; we have our own ways and paths. But still I can't help this feeling of boredom welling inside of me. I want to go to the mall but the heat! The heat! It's burning!

I just ate cup noodles for supper which I didn't finish.. I even vomited some of its contents. Seriously, it was disgusting. The noodles were all soggy and the smell was unappealing. I promised to myself that I would never have cup noodles for supper again. Eww. I'd rather eat biscuits for the whole day than eat those cup noodles again.

At least, I have a laptop. If I didn't have a laptop, I would really die of boredom. Seriously. The TV at the area wouldn't even help me relieve my boredom. Speaking of the TV, "wala jud kay madungan bisag magpaduol pa ka." The TV is simply useless. 

I'm not really complaining. I'm just kind of describing my situation. I'm still happy that I am still here in UP Diliman. And hopefully, I will graduate with honors, if possible. I kind of need to prove myself because I made a lot mistakes in my high school life, especially in my fourth year. I was totally a failure and a loser, a disgrace, if I may add. But that's all in the past right? I just need to move on. Yes! Move on!

Time Flies So Fast

I just graduated high school last three weeks. I will be opening another new door in my life. I will be writing another chapter in my book. I will add new notes to my composition. I will be creating another path for me to explore, to discover and to improve.

I will be going to college.

Truthfully, I don't think I'm that ready to step into that new world. The world which I think is suited for adults and for mature people. I don't think I have the confidence to go into the world where everything seems so far out of my reach. Yesterday, I felt like I was still in high school. Now, that I think about it, I am already out of high school. Yesterday, I felt like I was still enjoying my high school days. Now, as I face reality, I am so out of my high school days.

It seems everything was like yesterday. But I shouldn't worry because yesterday was yesterday, today is a new day. Right?

Like a Soaring Bird

Seriously, I haven't blogged for days already. I need to update.

Now, that I am officially free I have always felt that I am always floating in CLOUD 9. No responsibilities. Nothing to worry about. It's as if I can do anything that I want now. I am a bird who has realized how vast the sky is and how prepared I am to venture to the beyond. It's embarrassing at first but then you get started to get used to it. After getting used to it, people will get used to it and then the gossip will die down. 

Now, that I am free from any restrictions. I can feel that I can express myself more properly. Lately, I felt that I am more confident than before and that I can always find a reason to smile. The past still haunts me but I try to put all those wasteful thoughts at the back of my head. I try to remember the lines that gave me the courage to move on. I try to become a better person.

Some may say I haven't changed even one bit but I have strong feeling that I am starting to change for the better, like a flower that starts to bloom. I can now make jokes casually and laugh even at the lamest of jokes. I feel that I am quite satisfied at my life as a student, and as a friend. I try to start mending the broken threads of faith and patch up the holes in my life. Everyday I try; Everyday I fall; Everyday I rise again.

The future might still be in a blur but I am happy and contented of what I have now.

Quote for the Day

"Living in Envy is like living in hell."

                                                                                             -Kathy Amores

New Perspective

I didn't want to play it at first. Now, I am simply addicted to the game.

Quote's from the Genius

Compound Interest - "the greatest mathematical discovery of all time"

                                                                                                                          Albert Einstein

Volleyball Galore!

 Ouch. My body is aching all over. I think I have will have a bruise by tomorrow morning. After 2 years, I will be now playing volleyball again. - the sport that I kinda dislike the most.

Why?

It's not because I hate the ball itself. It is because I am afraid that the ball will hit my head that will later cause me mental damage. I am also afraid of serving the ball because it makes my arm sore when I do not hit it at the right position. Well, the fear is still tolerable. If I will be asked to play then so shall it be.

My classmates placed me in the line-up, not as a sub, but as one of the first six players! Imagine my shock when I heard that. It was quite unexpected in my part because I only thought that I would be one of the officiating people.

At first I protested, saying that I do not want to play volleyball. The end. But they said that the list was already past, backing out cannot be done. So I said, "Oh, well, might as well try, I may discover my hidden potential.." Then I insisted to my classmate, Khessa, a great volleyball player, to practice with me because I haven't played for quite a long time. I did not want to be the cause of the downfall for our section. I do not want us to end up losing points because of me.

So I made up mind, I practiced till nightfall and the result was learning the basic techniques in serving and having an aching body. Despite these things, I still felt good because I knew that I can play. Play well for a beginner who just practiced tonight.