New Perspective

I didn't want to play it at first. Now, I am simply addicted to the game.

Quote's from the Genius

Compound Interest - "the greatest mathematical discovery of all time"

                                                                                                                          Albert Einstein

Volleyball Galore!

 Ouch. My body is aching all over. I think I have will have a bruise by tomorrow morning. After 2 years, I will be now playing volleyball again. - the sport that I kinda dislike the most.

Why?

It's not because I hate the ball itself. It is because I am afraid that the ball will hit my head that will later cause me mental damage. I am also afraid of serving the ball because it makes my arm sore when I do not hit it at the right position. Well, the fear is still tolerable. If I will be asked to play then so shall it be.

My classmates placed me in the line-up, not as a sub, but as one of the first six players! Imagine my shock when I heard that. It was quite unexpected in my part because I only thought that I would be one of the officiating people.

At first I protested, saying that I do not want to play volleyball. The end. But they said that the list was already past, backing out cannot be done. So I said, "Oh, well, might as well try, I may discover my hidden potential.." Then I insisted to my classmate, Khessa, a great volleyball player, to practice with me because I haven't played for quite a long time. I did not want to be the cause of the downfall for our section. I do not want us to end up losing points because of me.

So I made up mind, I practiced till nightfall and the result was learning the basic techniques in serving and having an aching body. Despite these things, I still felt good because I knew that I can play. Play well for a beginner who just practiced tonight.

'Tis A New Year

I love you 2010. Goodbye 2009.

Well, some say that a new year is a start of something new. We try to forget our mistakes and take a step forward for the better. I mean it is usually for the better.

Kachink. 

New Year's Resolutions are born. We usually base our New Year's Resolution from the things we want to improve within ourselves. Example: If you're a crybaby, you make a promise that you won't cry easily. If you think you are fat, you want to lose weight or become slim. 

Well, I try to do my best to keep my New Year's Resolution but at the middle of the year  tend to forget what I have promised. The things I promised to change at the start of the year gradually reverts back to my old self.

Making a New Year's Resolution is a tradition, passed from generation to generation. Even prime ministers and presidents make their own New Year's Resolution.

I, myself, have one.

I promise that I will do my best never to be late in my classes and meetings that I must attend.

I promise that I will brush my teeth every night and if possible, every after meal.

I will try my best not procrastinate.

Truthfully, procrastination is one of my major problems. It usually brings me to the edge. But since luck is on my side, I never end up falling. Or not.

Criticisms are BAD for my HEART

Well, it's another ordinary day. I do the usual routine of my daily life - wake up, take a bath, change clothes and eat. After all these things, I go to school. The truth is I do not want to go to school. Why? Maybe because I do not have anyone to talk to. Maybe because I do not want to do all those tiresome activities. Or maybe because I am afraid to be judged, criticized.

Criticisms, my adviser says is a good way to help us improve ourselves. If you are criticized, you should feel good because someone even bothers about your own existence. Let's face it. Not everyone wants to be criticized in front of people and I am one of them. When someone says something bad about you in front of your face or behind your back, do you feel good? Or even inspired?

Hell. NO.

Again, my teacher says that if you cannot accept criticisms then you are not mentally healthy. She tells me that I am one of those not mentally healthy people. Maybe she is right, maybe I am not mentally healthy. I sometimes fail to do my responsibility as a leader. I smile when I forgot the things she assigned me to do. I set my emotionless face to work every time she scolds the whole class.

I always feel a gush of guilt and fear, every time I look at my teacher's face. Guilt because I was not able to do my part in the class. Fear because I absolutely do not want to hear her never-ending scoldings. BLAH.BLAH.BLAH.

I admit I am a coward. I fear even the tiniest of things. I do not want people to know my mistakes my disabilities as a person. I do not want my friends to realize that maybe they have chosen the wrong person as a friend.

I am afraid. I feel lonely right now. I want someone to help me. But who will? I wrote this to relieve my emotional stress. I am the only one who could help myself. No one can help me, not even my parents, not even my closest friends.

No one will ever save me from this LIVING HELL.

A New Way of Thinking

All right. Teachers say that, "Cheating is not an art, it is an insult to ones intellect." How can that be possible?When you cheat you still use your intellect, right? 

I am not that much of a cheater but I believe that cheating is complicated and it requires strategies and various techniques. You may think I am weird and idiotic but my revolutionary mind tells me that teachers should be happy when their students cheat during an exam. 

Why? 

I believe that when students cheat, they want to get a higher grade. After all the purpose of cheating is achieving a better grade. So if a student wants to get a higher grade no matter what the method is called PERSEVERANCE and OPEN-MINDEDNESS. 

Perseverance is trying hard while open-mindedness is opening to different possibilities. These virtues are present in cheating. 

Well, there are a lot of ways to cheat. But too much cheating is bad and irritating to other people. Well based from my observations, some people are jealous of cheaters. They envy the cheaters because they can be QUICK and ACCURATE at the same time. Amazing, right?? 

Everybody is a cheater in their own way. Cheating is not that easy but still it requires effort. Effort can be reflected in the strategy of the cheater.

I may sound I am defending the cheaters. But remember everyone is a cheater, so meaning I am defending everyone in this planet.

CRAZY RIGHT?

But that is the INCONVENIENT TRUTH.